Today was a good day

This has been one of those days that I just treasure.  Maija has been great at napping and when she is awake she has been so happy, giggly and fun to be with.  [After a very crabby day yesterday, I will take it].  Today she fell asleep on me and I just watched her sleep, so peaceful, so precious.  So lately, I've been considering going back to work.  I love being Maija's mama.  I love spending time with her, watching her grow and develop, being a part of these milestones she has conquered but I have been lonely and if I am being honest, bored.  Talking with one of my SAHM in CA before we moved she said, "Being lonely is one of the things SAHM don't talk about".  It's true.  I thought I was the only one.  She mentioned taking the long way home, just so you had something to do.  I guess a major conflict is that I always wanted to be a SAHM, my mom, mother in law and sister were/are stay at home mom's so why don't I feel like it is for me? 

Well, I guess, I am not saying it isn't for me, I am just saying Ryan and I have been talking through me going back to work.  It will have to be for the right job, the right opportunity.  But on days like today, when we do have so much fun, I am not fighting her to go down for a nap and when she even falls asleep on my chest, I second guess the thought of going back to work and knowing that I am a "grass is always greener gal" where does that leave me?  Prayer.  We will continue to pray, seek opportunity and then make a decision together.

Maija went on her first boat ride at my parents cabin.  We found a life jacket probably from the 70's for her to wear.  She didn't love it, she didn't hate it... she had no expression the whole time, which was funny in itself. 

Tonight my sister, husband and Abby come for the week- heading up to the cabin with them tomorrow and Ryan will be going to CA for a wedding this weekend.  I'm sad Ry won't be with us, but he will have a great time at the wedding and I am thankful that as a SAHM I can up and go to the cabin for the week worry-free.

And while playing with Chloe Hoe at my parents, my mom found this snowsuit Krista wore- looks a little big for YaYa but watch out, she might be sportin it this winter!